This is just a post to say that I'll have no internet connection for two weeks. I've been on hiatus for a while now, but I've had limited access to the internet incase anything major happened.

However, I'm now going to Mexico for two whole weeks without a computer in sight. So, if for any reason you need to contact me, I'm not going to be able to reply until the 1st September.

Missing you guys loads already! Hopefully I'll be able to catch up with you all when I get back. Feel free to leave any important posts you want me to see in the comments here :)

♥

Title: I think it’s time I shut us down
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 224
Warnings: Suggested violence. A few curses here and there.
Notes: I opened up my old GCSE IT book, and this is what happened. I'm not all that happy with it because I think it could work a whole lot better. Critique is very welcome.

( I think it’s time I shut us down. Give me the switch, let me do the talking, take a nice cosy seat baby and shut the fuck up. )

This thing went through so many rewrites, edits and more edits that I can't even remember why I started writing it. It's eight thousand words long, it's gen and it's a crossover. I'm a little scared that no one will want to read it, but I had a lot of fun with it. So, I hope anyone that does brave reading this (8, 000 words on a whim is a lot for me) enjoys it.

Fandom: Supernatural/Constantine
Title: Said the joker to the thief (There must be some way out of here)
Characters: Dean, Constantine, Sam and mentions of Ruby
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 8, 698
Spoilers: For the third season of Supernatural.
Beta-read by catdancerz, who kicked me into doing some much needed edits on this. patita_fea who took her hatchet and helped to shape my mess into something readable. It was over 8,000 words by the time patita_fea got to it, so it was a lot to ask. Thank you especially! You've both been so helpful and I can't be grateful enough :)
Notes: Based on the movie Constantine rather than the comic books, because Supernatural seemed to fit with the movie canon better.
Feedback: I live on this. Anything you have to say is always welcomed.
Summary: With Dean's deadline edging closer, Sam recruits the help of someone who knows a thing or two about hell.
Disclaimer: Don't own, don't sue.

( The guy’s an asshole – but he’s an asshole of a hunter that Sammy’s convinced can help save Dean from his impending deadline. John Constantine, he says his name is. Dean’s got a few others that suit him better. )

Make damn sure it's this one.

To be blunt, I tend to be really judgemental and unforgiving with Life On Mars fanfiction. I've never watched the American re-make, so I can't speak for that one, but in the original British series, the characters are all so strongly portrayed that you get a pretty vivid idea about all of them. It's very easy to be reading a fanfiction and to completely lose believability in it because you can see cracks in the characters you know so well.

Especially in the slash fanfiction. I can completely see Sam/Gene, but I tend to be very wary about reading it because too many fanfics turn Gene into some kind of scary, girly, caring, sensitive, messed up shell of his real character and Sam into an over exaggerated prissy woman on PMS that I just have to stop reading before I go nuts. Some horrific slash fanfiction can easily turn into sickening fluff that really mauls the characters in a way I really can't stand (or maybe I'm just looking in the wrong places). Even some of the good ones have things that I can't help but cringe at.

But this one can actually strike a balance I can believe. I also have a complete hard-on for stories where one character is losing their mind, and Sam with his 'maybe I'm in a coma, or maybe I'm in the past' frame of mind is too easy.

The writer just hits the nail bang on with everything, describing things with a good amount of flare from the characters in her writing, so that you can recognise the 'real' Gene and the unstable state of mind in Sam (and recognisable logic to his new situations) clearly.

So, yeah. I'm completely jealous and happy at the same time and you should just go read it now.

can fight the sleep but not the dream
Fandom: Life on Mars
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 10,423 words.
Summary: Sam is finding it difficult to distinguish between reality and unreality.

Extract: It’s cold this Monday in the way it hasn’t been for years --- a deep, unremitting coldness that strikes through material and flesh straight to the bone. Gene supposes he shouldn’t be surprised as he stands in the rain, but for some reason he is. It’s cold. He’s cold. He wraps his coat tighter around himself and watches as Sam stages his reconstruction.

He’s been odd lately. Not that he ever isn’t; Sam’s default is batshit crazy. But he’s been even worse than that, and if he’s slept it doesn’t show, and Gene doesn’t know why that bothers him, but it does.

Gene knows it’s likely due to their last case. Sam took the death pretty hard, and though he wanted to be consoling, he’s fairly sure he wasn’t, because Sam might self-medicate with the rest of them, but it never seems to cure him.

Sam looks up, straight into his eyes, as if he’s aware Gene’s been thinking about him --- worrying about him. But all he does is give a grim nod and come walking over, his swagger stiffer than usual and his expression the other side of bitter.

“This reconstruction’s going about as smooth as a tranny’s arse,” Gene says, as soon as Sam’s within earshot.

Sometimes I wish life came with instructions.

Title: Life User Manual
Rating: R
Word Count: 344
Warnings: Death, violence, suggested domestic violence.
Notes: A quick write. Time taken: 32 minutes. Also 'fag' is a British reference to a cigarette for anyone that needs that FYI.

( He grew up wrong. )

This is for dev_earl! I hope this cheers you up a little, and that my mistakes that plague this thing don't drive you crazy. Usually I take weeks with these things, and I somehow managed to type this in two days... And that's probably a bad thing for me. Not beta-read, so I'm really sorry for all the mistakes and fail in it.

More of a snippet kind of thing. For fun :)

I honestly have no idea where this came from. Hope your day went well today!

Fandom: Supernatural
Title: Life is a rehearsal
Characters: Jared, Dean (mentions of Sam, Jensen, Chad and Kim Manners)
Rating: PG-13 (Swearing, etc)
Word Count: 2, 965
Warnings: Not beta-read. Will probably be really disjointed and all over the place, so I fully apologise for any mistakes you come across!
Notes: For the wonderful dev_earl who is one of the best writers in this fandom.
Feedback: Not beta-read, so feedback pointing out mistakes is much appreciated!
Summary: Dean spends some time in reality. (RPF crossover)
Disclaimer: All lies, all in good fun. Don't own, don't sue.

( Dean’s going to go nuts if he has to spend one more second with this Jared guy. )

Hey guys. So being back from the horrible Hell of exams, naturally I'm spamming posting again with rubbish goodies icons! They're posted to morelen's community bleeding_icons, which I'm pretty excited to be posting to (I'm pretty excited to be back full stop :D! Ahah, yes. I know I sound lame. Give me a couple of days and this annoying attitude will die.)

[6] Christian Bale
[9] Desmond Harrington
[14] Gossip Girl
[20] Supernatural



( I figured I could really learn something. )

This is for glorify, who wanted wee!cest. This is probably a little off the mark from what you wanted, but I hope you like it just the same :D!

Fandom: Supernatural
Title: Feeling claustrophobic (Now my world is closing in)
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 2, 102
Warnings: Underage wincest (Sam is fourteen)
Beta-read by vorpalblades. Thank you for your help! Thank you for being able to put up with me and my mistakes!
Notes: For the amazing glorify who makes life on LJ much more fun.
Feedback: Yes please. Anything you have to say is always welcomed.
Summary: Sammy’s always been his to take care of (‘Keep your brother safe, Dean’), always the one to be kept sheltered and clean. Sammy doesn’t get demands or orders, doesn’t stumble home late at night smelling like sweat and gunpowder. Dean does.
Disclaimer: Don't own, don't sue.

( Sammy’s always been his to take care of (‘Keep your brother safe, Dean’), always the one to be kept sheltered and clean. )

Sometimes, I have a hard time summing up my feelings in words. This is one of those times.

I have never, ever had a paid account on livejournal. Ever. I've only just realised I've got one - I was too busy gushing over someone sending me a virtual gift. It's lovely. I always feel pretty special being sent virtual gifts, and so I was already jumping around for joy because of the typewriter.

Then I saw the paid account.

I just. Wow. I'm lost for words. A paid account. As in someone spent money on me of all people.

Thank you! Whoever you are, anonymous. I take it the typewriter's a hint? Probably to shove aside my real life issues and just finish possession already? Or write more in general?

A paid account and a gift. I'm probably never going to get over this - I still can't believe someone would spend money on me. Did they send it to the right person? Anonymous, you've officially broken me in the best way possible. I don't think I can ever thank you enough.

Thank you ♥

Well, a lot of these are weird. But I like most of them.

10 Fatal Frame icons (Fatal Frame 1, 2 and 4)
47 Supernatural icons

Teasers:



( It's like a journey. )

( Only with colour. )

Bandom: My Chemical Romance/30 Seconds to Mars
Title: Play Nice
Pairing(s): Gerard/Jared
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 2, 509
Warnings: Slight bondage, delayed orgasm, cock ring, snowballing and rimming.
Beta-read by ethanol. Thank you very much! I'm pretty sure this would be messy without your help.
Feedback: Yes please. Anything you have to say is always welcomed.
Summary: Pure porn. No, really.
Disclaimer: Never happened. These are all dirty lies.

( “It’s your stupid tie,” Gerard says, his mouth twisted with annoyance, “Your fault for wearin’ it.” )

We're reading Great Expectations by Charles Dickens in English.

Everyone says they hate it and I sort of nod and agree. "Oh, yeah. It's so boring."

I lie.

I read it and remain completely gob-smacked by his writing every single time. I mean, everything about it, from the imagery, vocabulary, the way he shamelessly repeats words but gets away with it because he makes it work - there's really just too much to comment on. It makes me kind of sad that most published fiction today doesn't come anywhere near this.

( So, here. Have an extract and an analysis of said extract. )

It was English homework, alright?

And, eventually, I will convince myself that Pip and Herbert Pocket Junior do not make a cute couple.

Pocket giving Pip the name Handel based on a 'charming piece of music' is not adorable either.

...Okay, so I'm lying again. I'm beginning to think I can't not slash characters.

I am perfectly aware that writing YED/Sam makes me a sick fuck. I have no excuses.

Fandom: Supernatural
Title: Belief is like a guillotine
Pairing(s): Sam/Dean, (some YED/Sam)
Rating: R
Spoilers: All Hell Breaks Loose
Word Count: 1, 809
Warnings: Wincest
Beta-read by ig_nobleigh. Thank you so much. You made this work.
Feedback: Yes please. Anything you have to say is always welcomed.
Summary: Sam doesn't really have a brother, because Dean doesn't exist.
Disclaimer: Don't own, don't sue. Driven by a plot bunny from here

( “You trust me, don’t you Sammy?” )

Two little, sugary-sweet Christmas drabbles. I'm ashamed to say they're not beta-read, but I hope you enjoy reading them anyway. There are also two Christmas songs for my flist, here :D

Fandom: Death Note
Title: Lazy
Pairing: Mello/Matt
Rating: PG-13 (for cursing)
Word Count: 345
Not beta-read. I'm very sorry for any mistakes you might come across.
Feedback: Yes please. Anything you have to say is always welcome. If you spot any mistakes you would like to point out, please feel free to do so.

( “Mello-dramatics, you can come in now.” )

--

Fandom: Heroes
Title: Christmas Dinner
Pairing: Nathan/Hiro
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 296
Not beta-read. I'm very sorry for any mistakes you might come across.
Feedback: Yes please. Anything you have to say is always welcome. If you spot any mistakes you would like to point out, please feel free to do so.

( “No,” Hiro sighs expressively, “I want something much better.” )

Erm. No Supernatural. Maybe later?

And, yes. I support the completely crack!tastic pairing that is Nathan/Hiro. I regret nothing :D

Fandom: Supernatural
Title: And I will not let you sleep
Pairing: Dean/Sam
Rating: R
Spoilers: All Hell Breaks Loose
Word Count: 2, 383
Warnings: Mentions of wincest
Beta-read by thehighwaywoman. Thank you so much for your help with this! I can't thank you enough!
Feedback: Yes please. Anything you have to say is always welcomed.
Summary: Sam rejects Dean for bringing him back to life. (From here)
Disclaimer: Don't own, don't sue.

( He was dead. Dead, resting, gone, oblivious – and Dean brought him back. )

Snagged from quarterwhore:

A meme where you post annonymously, so you can be as brutally honest as you want.

Anon Meme || Mine

The Thanksgiving Meme! Post why you're grateful for the people on your flist. Ha, I'm celebrating a holiday I don't celebrate. I will be fasting at Ramadan soon if I keep this up.

The Great Thanksgiving Meme || Mine

Post unlocked for now - so that the anon meme is a little more anonymous. Both are multi-fandom, I think.

Oh, and pimp these? Play too? I need a distraction from the doctor I'm going to see in an hour. I hate doctors.

Playing the Fatal Frame 100 game... thing. If you know Fatal Frame, I demand you play it too :D

Fandom: Fatal Frame/Project zero
Title: 18 - Rainbow
Characters: Miku Hinasaki, Mafuyu Hinasaki
Rating: PG-13 (violent imagery?)
Word Count: 246
Disclaimer: All fictional. I own nothing but the words.

( Green and cracked, those were the walls seared into her mind, familiar from the times she sat in her brother’s room and confessed her nightmares. The visions, the monsters, the pain – and he already knew them all. )

Playing the Fatal Frame 100 game... thing. If you know Fatal Frame, I demand you play it too :D

Fandom: Fatal Frame/Project zero
Title: 52 - Deep in thought
Characters: Mio Amakura, Mayu Amakura
Rating: PG-13 (character death)
Word Count: 112
Disclaimer: All fictional. I own nothing but the words.

( Reality calls out to her constantly, but she ignores it all. )

Fandom: Supernatural
Title: Pumpkins should not be heads
Characters: Dean, Sam and a fairy (no pairings).
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 5, 183
Warnings: Dangerously close to being crack
Beta-read by baileytc. Without her help, this would be a big pile of bad grammar and pesky British terms.
Feedback: Yes please! Even if it's just to recommend an asylum.
Summary: Dean's head turns into a jack-o-lantern. Very late entry for spn_halloween
Disclaimer: All fictional. I own nothing.

( “Oh, ha ha ha,” Dean says sarcastically, “I’m glad one of us is finding this funny.” )

Playing the Fatal Frame 100 game... thing. If you know Fatal Frame, I demand you play it too :D

Fandom: Fatal Frame/Project zero
Title: 78 - Drink
Characters: Junsei Takamine, Mafuyu Hinasaki
Rating: PG-13 (Not even that)
Word Count: 387
Disclaimer: All fictional. I own nothing but the words.

( He figures one glass wouldn’t hurt. Then another, then another, until it gets to the stage where he’s allowing himself bottles instead of glasses and gives up keeping count on how much alcohol he’s consuming. )